Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Violet is a Spokescollie!

So, just a couple of days ago I got a Facebook message from Marilyn, a fellow Indy volunteer for TriState Collie Rescue. She is also the treasurer of the organization, and I've met her a few times for hand-offs while transporting. Very, very nice lady. It just said that she had just left me a voicemail and it was urgent. I'd been lolling around on the couch, dying and doing homework (I have a cold), and the phone was buried in the couch cushions.

So I called her back and it turns out that TSCR was going to do an interview for a local news channel and they needed some Collie representatives. Marilyn was having hand surgery the day before the interviews, so she couldn't handle her dog as far as traveling is concerned, and her dog was also a Collie mix. I moved around a wedding dress fitting a little bit and said sure. Violet got recruited, along with two other Collies owned by a volunteer.

I won't lie, I was nervous. Several reasons, like:
  1. Violet is a Collie. I don't know if you've met a Collie, but they bark.
  2. Now and then, Violet hates people. 90% of the time she is your normal, happy, loving, gentle, sweet Collie, but occasionally, she meets someone that she just can't stand. Of course she's never aggressive, but she will bark, she will back away if they approach her, and she will not accept treats from them. There is no rhyme or reason to it. She hated the photographer for our engagement pictures, and I can tell you that the photographer was a very, very nice lady. I do not know what her deal is.
  3. Violet has anxiety. We've found that melatonin vastly helps her remain at an even keel, but I'd be lying if I said that she didn't have a couple of issues.
  4. I hate being on camera.
  5. Oh, also I hardly have any voice. I've been sick all week and now I sound like a teenage boy at puberty.
So I said yes with the contingency that I didn't have to speak and that she'd be given a few minutes to acclimate to the room. I cut up a ton of little cocktail weenies and put them in a travel cup, gave her some melatonin and off we went, downtown.

She. Did. Amazingly.

Oh my gosh. I have never been more proud of that dog. We were there for nearly an hour before shooting, and she was calm, focused, working her commands, doing tricks, being sweet and friendly and perfect. She started to spook halfway through filming because a giant camera-thing on wheels (not attached to a person, just a free agent camera thing) started moving right toward the stage, but come on. She's a herding breed. Other than some jitters when we first started - she'd had tons of time to acclimate to the building and people but only about 45 seconds to acclimate to the actual room - she was so perfect.

You'll note that I had absolutely no idea where I was supposed to be looking, so I just looked everywhere, basically. Oh well. It's not an interview about adopting 24 year old social work students, so it's okay. The video:


You'd better believe, she got every last cocktail weenie when she was done. I feel like she's come a long way.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Dog Day Afternoon ft. Woofstock 2012

A couple weeks ago, Dog Day Afternoon was here! It was not quite as fun as last year, but I'm still glad that we went. It seemed so wrong without Piper. She had a lot of fun last year, and Violet has never been quite as stable as far as anxiety since Piper died, so I think that she had a lot more fun last year, too.

Last year...








 





This year we took Violet and Natalie just for an hour or so. Violet was quite nervous, and we left early.




Scratch Mobile Comfort Food: best burger I've ever had. 

Natalie pooped out.

Hopefully next year will be a little nicer.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Engagement Photos

A little while ago, we had our engagement photos taken by Ashley at Grey Sparrow Photography. I wanted to wait a while to share them, because they were used on our Save the Dates (and speaking of which, if you find yourself needing anything of that sort, I absolutely cannot recommend Pear Tree Greetings highly enough) and we wanted them to arrive as a surprise in the mailboxes of our families. Ashley was awesome enough to let me play with the unedited proofs that weren't included in her edits when she gave us the discs with my own editing software, as long as it is noted when shared online who edited what, so that will be noted after each photo. Without further ado:

Editing is mine.

There's a little prologue to the next few photos. Our city has three or four major emergency veterinary clinics. When I was very first working in veterinary medicine, I worked in one of them for about two years and then moved across town. I relocated to a general practice for two years and then left (on very good terms) for a variety of reasons to my third and last clinic, another general practice that directed emergencies that were beyond its scope to the first clinic that I'd worked at, the major emergency clinic.

I had kind of a schoolgirl crush on a male tech over at that clinic. I'd never met the guy, but he had this extremely deep, rumbly voice. I had to call that clinic a lot to follow up on our regular clients that we'd sent over there as emergencies who may prefer to stick with us for follow up care (suture removals, bandage changes, that kind of thing). I didn't get that guy a lot, he wasn't a receptionist, but now and then he'd answer and I'd find myself rather sketchily trying to keep him on the phone longer than necessary. "Oh, could you tell me when that dog's drain removal is recommended?" when I had the faxed report right there in my hand, just to listen to him talk. He obviously considered himself inconvenienced and hassled, but veterinary medicine is a brutal field. Between intense hours, intense physical demands, intense burn-out rates, the notion of a lunch break is a joke, and far too many situations that are heartbreaking, infuriating, or both, and I'll just be real here: this guy had a hell of a sexy voice. A tech's pleasures are relatively few. That went on for months, just on and off, I'd catch him on the phone every month or so and make excuses to keep him there, never think about it again until the next time he answered the phone.

I left that clinic, ultimately, and veterinary medicine as a whole. I had compassion burn-out, I wanted to be able to pay my rent without barely scraping by, I was exhausted by the field that I loved and needed to re-evaluate. I was single, in a decent apartment, about two months out of veterinary medicine, assessing my career plans, just generally reconsidering my entire life, when I was set up on a blind date with some guy who'd also very recently left veterinary medicine. I'd never been on a blind date before, but we'd exchanged several e-mails and this guy was ridiculously intelligent, well-spoken, funny, and charming, so I agreed to meet at Starbucks. We figured out where we lived in relation to one another (three miles apart) by what clinic we lived nearest. "I'm up by Acme Emergency Clinic, where are you?" "Oh, I know right where that is. Are you close to McClinic on McClinic Road?" "No, not quite that far down." That kind of thing. I figured if we hit it off, we could linger at Starbucks for hours, if we didn't, I could finish off my cider in short order and call it a night.

Have you figured out the obvious punchline here yet? Mr. Blind Date was Mr. Sexy Voice. It took me a minute, but lo and behold. We didn't call it a night for five or six hours. We sat at Starbucks and talked well into the night. It was the 3rd of July, and there were fireworks behind him, over his shoulder, and I kept thinking "They say when you meet the one, there are fireworks." Of course, it was the day before Independence Day, there would've been fireworks regardless, but it's true that I knew that early. Love at first sight seems silly, unrealistic, but I'd say that I knew at first sight that I would love him. I kept thinking that the fireworks had to be a sign and not hearing what he was saying, but I was having trouble hearing him anyway. In person, his voice is so deep it's hard to hear sometimes, until you get used to it.

We had a date about every two or three days for the next two and a half weeks. All very proper, gentlemanly, but we would sit out under the trees in front of my apartment for hours after a date. We'd agree on dinner and a walk around the Canal, and it just wasn't long enough. He'd drop me off and the conversation would just continue for four more hours. In his car, in the grass, on the hood of his car. After two and a half weeks, we made it exclusive, though it had been already, really.

10 months later, I was still not willing to go back to veterinary medicine no matter how desperately I missed it, and was working retail while I got my ducks in a row to start college. We were living together. I was having a terrible day at work when Eric texted me and asked if I'd like to go see Bridesmaids at a drive-in that night. Of course I did. We had a great date night, and when the movie was over - very late, after midnight - he said that he wanted to go walk the Canal. Well, I'd been up since 5am for work, I really had to pee, it was so late...but he was determined. Determined enough to drive miles out of the way to find somewhere still open that I could use the restroom, and buy me some caffeine while we were there. Alright. So we went to the Canal, and it was full of delinquent, kind of scary teenagers. I said that they were making me nervous and I wanted to leave. He was way too distraught about this for something not to be up, so we got back in the car and he said "I have a new plan!" and made me close my eyes for the drive. By now it was probably 3am. When the car stopped, he led me with my eyes still shut somewhere and let me open my eyes. We were at Starbucks - not a 24 one, so it was closed - where we first met, at the same table outside where we first met, and after a minute of very nervous hemming and hawing, he got down on one knee, pulled a box with a beautiful diamond ring out of his pocket, and said "I want to ask you to marry me."

Obviously, I said yes.

When engagement photos turned out to be part of our wedding photographer's package, we decided to go ahead with them even though we'd been engaged for a year. We went to three locations, and one of them was that same Starbucks, where we met, and where we now joke that something fateful happens every single time we go there. "Uh oh, there's Starbucks. Wonder if we'll end up buying a house if we go there this time, maybe meet a real estate agent in line. Maybe when it's time I should take a pregnancy test there."

And that, friends, is the very long story behind the next four photos.

And funnily enough, Brad Paisley's song I Thought I Loved You Then just came on Pandora. If you're familiar with the lyrics, you know why that's funny.

Editing is Ashley's.

Editing is Ashley's.

Editing is mine.

Editing is mine.

Editing is Ashley's.

Editing is mine.

Editing is mine.

Editing is mine - technically an outtake, but I loved it anyway.

Editing is Ashley's.

Editing is mine.

Editing is mine.

Editing is mine.

Editing is Ashley's, slight crop and rotate is mine.

Editing is mine.

(Gorgeous) editing is Ashley's. The wedding is 11-10-12, but we had a little bit of a mishap with the letters, so we made the best of it. I mean, it's still November 2012, right?

Amazing editing is Ashley's.

And there you have it! :) The dogs did not cooperate. Violet was aware of a budding storm that we were not (she has massive storm anxiety). It was nearly impossible to get her to have her ears up or even look, and we couldn't for anything figure out why until it started pouring rain the second after the last sunset picture was taken. Java had budding reactivity that we had yet to really accept/identify/learn to manage, and was fixated on every person or animal walking by, which is why he looks like an aggressive maniac in almost every single picture. All in all the dog situation was a complete disaster, but our engagement pictures wouldn't have been complete without them.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Training day.

Today, we trained. I came home from a studying-event-thing for my math final and decided that the dogs should endure the same rigors. So out came the long leads and the clicker.

Java has some anxiety about jumping into the car, for some reason. No anxiety about car rides, just the act of jumping in. I decided to take it in bits - I'll sit in the back seat with the clicker and some tasty treats, click for getting half into the seat, then click and treat for getting in when he starts to get comfortable. Put it on cue for "Get in!" Not when we're actually going somewhere, we just go out there once or twice a day and work on it, then back inside. Next step once he gets comfortable with that will be to move to standing outside the car and saying "Get in!" Click and reward. Move to having him jump into the backseat with the crate in it. Move to actually using this when we're going somewhere. So on and so forth.

For a few days, it was no dice. He'd get his front feet up on the seat, get nervous and run away with his ears back. (He was on the long lead, so no dogs were risking being run over in the making of this video.) Gradually he got more confident, more comfortable. Today, he did it like a pro for the first time. I was so proud. I was in the backseat holding the long lead, he would be sniffing around the yard, hear "Get in!" and hightail it into the car, hardly any anxiety to be seen. Seems so small, but it seemed like such a breakthrough at the time.


Violet came out and sat in the backseat with me for a while, then we went to the field to train. Java got zoomies. Pictures happened.




 






Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Lamps, the Collie, me, and a goose.



Cool lamps in a Thai restaurant.


Artsy-fartsy self-portraits. 

Violet's walk today. 

The Violet smile.

This and the next couple normally would have been outtakes (blurry, etc.), but she used to have anxiety about getting into water, so I was proud of her for charging right in today. She's always been fine with standing at the edge of a lake/creek/etc., with her front paws in, but she never likes to get further than arm's reach from me. We've come a long way with her anxiety.



She was watching Eric.


Ahem. It's a Collie butt.






And a rather angry goose.